I found the oddest source of comfort Dec. 30th while I was channel surfing.
2006 brought some losses for me, losses that still make me ache.
Funny thing though, memories can't be taken away.
The holidays were trying, at best. I think all of us did our best to do something different this year, to sort of soothe the ache of losing mom.
I knew New Year's wouldn't be as bad as Christmas, that's a given.
But as I was channel surfing, I came across something so totally unexpected that thoroughly warmed my heart.
The Lawrence Welk show.
Here's why: when I was growing up, my Granny Rocky (mom's mom), faithfully watched, and enjoyed the show. As her little visitor, I would watch it too. And I was just young enough to be thoroughly entertained by the singing and dancing, longing to grow up and be so pretty as these ladies, be able to sing and dance with my prince charming.
As I watched the show, I could feel the warmth of her white living room. I really felt connected and comforted. Especially when this song came on:
I'll keep my place beside you, smiling through your tears.
Through the night, I'll be a star to guide you, shining bright to guide you.
Other tunes from the show we heard that night included these lyrics:
May you always walk in sunshine.
May no trouble travel your way.
May no worry stay too long.
May you find someone to love you as much as I love you.
Sound melancholy? It wasn't. By the end of the special New Year's Lawrence Welk show, my son and I were belting out Tiny Bubbles and When the Saints Come Marching In.
And if ever there were a time when I felt surrounded by loved ones who've passed away, this was surely it.